Lately.. ive noticed the fact that I have issues getting up stairs. No, not figuratively.. or metaphoricaly.. actual real stairs. If Im not running up them two at a time then Im walking slowly and clutching the railing for grip desperatly.

I cant do it. I just cant… I dont know why but its hard. Surely this means that my first disability as I age will be the ability to go up and down stairs…. might as well give up now..

In my dream last night.. I was just turning 17 and my legs were already failing. The doctors said I wouldnt even be able to walk by the time I was twenty-five so I might as well get some practice in the chair now. Naturaly in the dream (since its always the non important things that matter) I was debating if I should ever go to school in my wheel chair. I could use crutches on my bad days and walk on my good ones. It would be weird if I showed up to school in a wheel chair sometimes and walk the other times.

The dream kinda bothered me… I turn 17 next week.. and I constantly feel like walking is just one big pain. I cant go up the steps unless Im running… and even then I fall half the time.